Ok, here come the excuses... Sorry for being absent from blogger lately. It's amazing that if you just say "you are not going to blog today", how quickly that can turn into tomorrow, and the next day, and the next, and before you know it a month has gone by. I guess I took a break from blogging without really meaning to.
Now I could say that so many things have been going on lately that I really didn't have time to blog, but that wouldn't be totally true. It is true that sometimes I get way too many "projects" going, and start many more than I finish. It always seems to be a question of "what am I going to work on today?" and "what am I going to let slide?" I have projects going on here that I have literally been working on for years, and one would think I would finish up some of them before I start any new ones, but what would be the fun in that.
I've often thought that people don't die "wishing that they had done all these things that they always wanted to do." No, I believe people die when "they run out of things to do that they always wanted to do." I see people in their "mid-life crisis", rushing around doing all kinds of wild and dangerous things, wanting "to get them in" before their time runs out, and I wonder "if you get them all done, what's left after that?"
Fortunately, I've been spared the desire to go climb mountains or jump out of perfectly good airplanes (shouldn't people save that one for last just in case the parachute doesn't open?). My desires are much simpler. I want to get rid of all my bad vices (smoking and drinking), I want to learn Tai Chi, I want to learn all about Buddhism and learn to meditate, I want to become a calmer, more focused individual. Some people that know me would say that "I would have to die to become any calmer", but these people only see an outward projection and do not have a clue how I feel inside. It seems as I get older, I am having a much harder time staying "in the eye of the hurricane", if that makes any sense to you.
If I just thought about all the books I want to read before I died, I could probably come up with about 300 years worth of reading, and the list grows daily, much faster than I could ever possibly read them. The invention of e-books hasn't helped the situation much either, and lately I've found quite a few of them that have taken up more of my free time.
I would like to say that all the things I have been doing have been positive things, but anyone who has a life knows that that can never be the truth. Work has been a bear lately, with several people leaving, and the rest of us having to pick up the slack. So there has been more than one day of coming home and zonking out on the couch. One might also think that I have been wasting my time watching TV, as the new seasons of many of my shows and the hockey season have started, but unfortunately keeping my eyes open to see them has been more of a challenge than anything else lately. I can't blame this napping all on work though, since I know a lot of it is being caused by my trying to quit smoking (8 weeks now), so I guess that fixes the Karma of it.
It hasn't been all bad things either, as I have been taking some long walks through the neighborhood (camera in hand), mostly trying to slow down this weight gain that quitting smoking has thrown at me. I have also rediscovered my love for vegetables, which is a good thing, and has helped slow down the weight gain as well, if only food didn't taste so good right now. I have also completed a couple of woodworking projects that have helped to keep my hands busy. I will try and bring you pictures from my walks and my woodworking projects in some later posts.
So there are my list of excuses for not blogging for the last month, all of which I know may seem pretty lame, but thats my story and I'm sticking to it. I will try to pick it up, and be a better blogger, but I ain't makin' no promises (by the way I have been reading your blogs but haven't always been in a position where I was able to make comments on them).
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6 comments:
Hey G,
The judges will accept your answers...though we aren't really judging. Nice to see you back. Can hardly wait to see those pix, and Yay! on the smoking.
I'll be tuning in for next month's installment...
I totally relate to your blog post. Life seems to have grabbed me by the throat lately also and won't let go. My year or two of blogging mindlessly is over, my friend. Good luck with your reading and work. By the way, what position are you in where you can't comment lately?:)
Enid
Thanks guys
Hey G - I knew you wouldn't be judgmental but I'll try to do better than "next month"...
Enid - I was in the position of being at work wherein many such sites have been blocked out (I can't open any myspace site). These message boards are on the forbidden list, though blogger isn't blocked out yet (knock on wood) so I can still read the posts at lunchtime, but the comment thingy won't come up...
LOL! Yay on the no smoking front, that's wonderful!
Oh, and don't worry so much about us, it's YOUR life that deserves all the attention, not our rapacious appetite for your blog posts.
:)
Maybe we can prolong our lives just by thinking about all those good books that will go unread by us if we don't live a long, long time! I'm quite inspired by the thought.
Book reading is one of the things taking up my blogging time--I haven't posted as often lately either.
But I see the coming of the dark days and rainy weather as potentially more time to do both. :)
And good for you on quitting smoking---i have heard from many a friend who has quit smoking that food tastes MUCH better.
Glad to see you back in blogland! I know all about starting too many projects and not being able to finish many. I've always wondered what it would be like to really be able to focus on only one or two things and get them finished...I find so many things interesting that it is hard to stay on track sometimes!
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